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This reminds me of the lovely male nurse when I was seriously ill in hospital following the birth of my daughter who had told me,

“Give yourself permission not to cope for a day,^

I had found “not coping” in my relationship was actually dangerous! My ex had not accepted that he would need to cancel our overseas trip even though I was literally dying at the time!

It is like standing in front of a tank and trying to stop it or perhaps lying down Arthur Dent Style in front of a bulldozer!

Arthur Dent & The Bulldozer Sadly that little scene had ended with the Earth being blown up by the Vogons!

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Kim Eng has also suggested giving ourselves permission to collapse. I was pretty angry because the minute I did that, everything fell apart! However I have yet to see the long term effects of allowing myself to fall in a heap! I am scared I may find myself unable to pick myself back up again. Mum had sent me a beautiful card calling me a survivor. I am not so sure I am any more…

Within weeks of meeting my ex I had contracted glandular fever, It had taken me years to recover, I now suspect that all the stress to which I have been subjected has reactivated everything!