The End of The Tunnel

How many of us who have experienced narcissistic abuse end up moving homes? Some even decide to move countries. In many cases this relocation can be an amazing opportunity. In my case the one time my youngsters decided briefly to have my ex narc on loud speaker phone, he had managed to mock my plans. You know the kind of thing, so I won’t go into details.

Nonetheless I pressed on and here I sit writing in my new home. Life still presents occasional challenges but I feel like I am on another planet. I think I must have been living in Narc Central before my move. I wonder if they are all drawn together, as I swear the vast majority of people I encountered there, were somewhere on the upper end of the narcissistic spectrum. I realise now that I had been living totally on edge for decades. It was his world but it had never been mine. Now it feels like I am back in my world, I have to pinch myself to check it’s real. My years living in Narcville, have left me profoundly mistrustful but I am starting to chill out a little now and I even experience moments of pure joy.

Today was just such a day. I spent time with a friend, who loves my new home as much as I do. People don’t barge into me anymore. They stop at crossings. They wait patiently in the checkout queue and above all they actually smile.

When we are going through the trauma of divorce and separation, the future can seem daunting but if we plod on, keep moving one foot, however tentatively, in front of the other, (even when the path ahead seems to have disappeared into dark and even occasionally dangerous undergrowth), one day light will break through and life will begin again.

2 Corinthians 5:17

Hamster in the sun
The Future Is So Bright I Gotta Wear Shades

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here!

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